So, it has been quite a long time since I last posted to this blog. Many things have changed in that time and some important things have stayed way to similar! In the past year, I welcomed my 4th child, my son, Elijah Gabriel to the world...I said good-bye to my wife's grandfather who passed away...watched as Cassidy Grace worked her way through three levels of her Tang Soo Do Mi Guk Kwan class, breaking boards with both her hands and feet along the way...watched as Lily Anne made great strides in gymnastics and then decided to join her older sister in karate and has already earned two stripes on her white belt...I have also watched as Finnegan Michael has started to grow into quite the young man with a new "big boy" haircut, shaved like his daddy, and a very mature decision to take on the challenge of joining the swim team this summer. My wife and I celebrated another anniversary and are poised to ring in a 13th year of marriage very soon! All of these wonderfully emotional things have occurred and have been great blessings to my life.
Unfortunately, the one constant that has not changed very much, is of course....MY WEIGHT!
Interestingly enough, I am doing OK right now with this very frustrating situation. It has taken one year, one month and 22 days to come to the realization that I will never accomplish my goals of losing weight and getting healthy if I constantly berate and condemn myself. I am at a good mental place right now with the choices I am making to make my life more emotionally and physically healthy. I have the support of my amazing wife and wonderful kids...I have a phenomenally patient therapist who genuinely cares about my situation and is always there to give me a positive message and sound advice...I have a loving family and great friends who support me and encourage me and I HAVE A PLAN!
I finally have a long-term plan that will hopefully allow me to maintain a clear focus and drive to achieve my ultimate goals. I am taking things day by day and not looking too far into the future and getting lost in the "what might be", but staying locked into the present and "what actually is"! This new clarity is fueling a motivation in me to be better and to work harder, thus my return to this blog.
I have decided that the blog will now be a place for me to write my thoughts, feelings and ideas and not a place where I feel like I need something to be grandiose or over-the-top with themes and motifs. I am just going to be me and write what is important at the time I feel the need to write. I hope that what I choose to write about will be interesting to others and maybe a little motivational, especially to those, who like me, just need a little bit of simple honesty to get through the rough patches. To the followers of my blog, thank you for being great friends and supporters of me and my life and to the others that may stumble across this and find it interesting, thanks for taking the time to sit and read a spell...Life is just too fast...it pays to slow down and enjoy the little things that make it so great!
